new posts coming, i hope sooner...

I'm having a hard time finding time to post a new blog. I'm in a transition. But coming soon, my cathlab experience, parties, trips, twilight, heartaches, happiness, interests and personals. Pics are available in my Friendster profile. Thanks.

JUST STAND UP to Cancer/ BFFs

Last Monday, my BBFs went out for a date. Just to catch up on everybody else's new thingy's, gossips, lovelife and non-sensical stuffs. Evie got a new phone and she was also so ecstatic about the Boyzone reincarnation that she already got their new single. She even tried to reserve a copy of their album that wasn't out yet. Then come Ash who has a flourishing lovelife and is still juggling work from his studies. Finally, Abi, who just celebrated her birthday yesterday who expresses her company's marked VTO occurence and her new slave. haha.

While browsing Ash's iPod, I found this new song. A live collaboration performance for the benefit of cancer research programme, "Just Stand Up to Cancer." Vocals for this performance we're Mariah Carey, Beyoncé, Mary J. Blige, Rihanna, Fergie, Sheryl Crow, Nicole Scherzinger, Natasha Bedingfield, Miley Cyrus, Leona Lewis, Carrie Underwood, Keyshia Cole, LeAnn Rimes, Ashanti and Ciara. Here's the video clip form youtube.com (notice the absence of Sheryl, LeAnn and Ashanti, but they're on the record, I think nicole replaced some of their parts.):



Stand Up To Cancer (SU2C) is a non-profit organization established by a group of media, entertainment, scientific and philanthropic leaders, whose lives have all been affected by cancer in significant ways. A joint initiative with the Entertainment Industry Foundation and the American Association for Cancer Research (AACR), Stand Up To Cancer is leveraging industry resources -- people, as well as mediums such as television and the web -- to fight against cancer as never before. They're putting together the best and the brightest minds in cancer research -- those on the edge of accomplishment -- investing in their projects and taking the bureaucratic obstacles out of their way. They are building interdisciplinary "Dream Teams" of scientists, clinicians, technicians and other experts, who will focus on a specific cancer problem.

Raising conciousness is one of the agenda so here comes blogging, a Virtual Stand Up. After all, my grandfather died of Leukemia, and most probably I'm going to die with one of the many cancer types, no kidding.

You can donate to JSU2C if you want but it's better to just donate here in the Philippines. We have so many foundations here like The Cancer Institute Foundation, Inc. ( http://www.cifphil.org/ ) and Cancer Warriors Foundation, Inc. ( http://www.cancer-warriors.org/index.html ).

Emo Weekend

Nag-depress-depressan ako this weekend. Emo mode ang drama. I sent uber-emo quote and it goes like this...

Why am I always the loser?
Why must I be the one who must hold on to something I can't have?
Why can't I be found by the one who could really love me for who I am?
Why should I always pretend that I'm ok when inside it hurts being alone and at the same time afraid of being with someone who would leave me, broken?
Why do I feel this way when I almost have everything I should be thankful for?
Why can't I sleep at night not thinking what tomorrow holds for me?

Why? Why?

Naka-text ko si Abi. Sabi nya I can't please everybody, that I should not create a likeable personality 'coz it can be dangerous, it'll compromise me. That I need to get out of my shell and straighten out my principles. Sabi ko, "Kaya nga I'm under construction eh!"

Siguro yung feeling ko is a mixture of everything, transition of work from a call center rep for a year to a nurse trainee. Tapos wala pang sweldo (though it's not really a problem since may magulang pa ako, hehe). Three days off tpos walang magawa kundi manood ng Koreanovela DVD's at manghiram ng PSP. Oo nga pla, try looking for the Korean mini series "If in love... like them", medyo tragic, 4 episodes lang kaya hindi masyado nakakatamad panoorin.

Kasi naman eh, tungkol nanaman sa love... hay, nakakahiya...

Kanina nagbasa lang ako ng FHM ng sister ko, yung Ladies Confessions section saka Bar Room Jokes, wala kasi magawa. Later this day Cathlab procedures and duties naman. Back to reality!

I just remembered, si Ely Buendia ay isinugod ulit sa ospital during the Eraserheads reunion. Nakakalungot talaga. Inaaya nga ako ng college friends ko na umatend sa gig na ito eh, sponsored daw ng Marlboro for E-heads fans na smokers. Pero nagkaproblema daw or something kaya sinalo ng isang radio station ang gig. But anyways, second or third hospitalization na yata niya ito eh. From what I know Ely already undergone Angioplasty (arterial stenting due to lumen occlusion, etc.) sa St. Luke's. That's a pretty risky and high-peso procedure. Let's just pray for his speedy recovery. Live long Our Generation's Rock Icon!

If you want to see or hear his sister's words about Ely being rushed to the hospital during the concert, click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1NOW7dzPGrw&feature=related

I Was Harrassed

This happened two weeks ago in Edwin's Place at Galas, QC. It was raining that night, the pour was so hard that I almost soaked myself before even gracing the party that turned out to be horrific. While drinking "Generous" amount of brandy and munching some choice greens I felt kinda dizzy. I smoked some more! Then there is an urge for me to lie down and retire. I dozed off with people around murmuring in my head.

I slept like a baby.

Results?



Horrific right??? Super Ghaslty!!!

They're so bad that they even took pictures of me 'walang kalaban laban'. Do I still call them friends? Yes! Ang lakas mang-trip!
Revenge is a MUST!

But that night is fun. I saw friends that I haven't seen for years, some have changed, some have not. To Edwin, the host that night, thanks a lot and bring me my silver!

Again, the lesson is don't sleep like a baby, or never join a 3-5 man drinking spree with the "Generous".

Karaoke Addict!

This is an excerpt of me singing Arms Wide Open by Creed.

Date: July 26, 2008
Venue: Carla Domingo's Crib, Anonas area
Event: Mayor's Gathering





This is my cousin Dessa, she's really the singer in the family. She's singing Kiss Me by Sixpence Non The Richer. We conquer stages! haha




Here's another one from her, In or Out by Sandara Park.



I'm not sure, but I think I did more that 20 songs this night.

Somewhere Over the Rainbow, Maybe...

Sometimes,
there's a place in my mind
where I go
and think of you...

A place
only I know of...

Where I can escape
and dream of you...

Where you materialize
and becomes mine...

But that place
is nowhere near reality...

Never was,
probably never will...

-sad anonymous hopeless romantic

What is Carbon Footprint?

I came accross this article about carbon footprint in Haring Ibon, issue 32 by Dominic Gonzales of Manila Waldorf School. I have been seeing about this over the web but never really understand it, let's educate ourselves...

A carbon footprint is a measure of the impact our activities have on the environment, and in particular climate change. It relates to the amount of greenhouse gases produced in our day-to-day lives through burning fossil fuels for electricity, heating and transportation etc. The carbon footprint is a measurement of all greenhouse gases we individually produce and has units of tonnes (or kg) of carbon dioxide equivalent.

A carbon footprint is made up of the sum of two parts, the primary footprint and the secondary footprint.

Primary Footprint

The primary footprint is a measure of our direct emissions of CO2 from the burning of fossil fuels including domestic energy consumption and transportation. We have direct control of these.

Breakdown (46%):

1. Home: a. Gas, oil and coal (15%), b. Electricity (12%)

2. Transport: a. Private (10%), b. Public (3%), c. Holiday flights (6%)

Secondary Footprint

The secondary footprint is a measure of the indirect CO2 emissions from the whole lifecycle of products we use - those associated with their manufacture and eventual breakdown. To put it very simply – the more we buy the more emissions will be caused on our behalf.

Breakdown (54%):

1. Food and drinks (5%)

2. Clothes and personal effects (4%)

3. Car manufacture and delivery (7%)

4. House - buildings and furnishings (9%)

5. Recreation and Liesure (14%)

6. Financial services (3%)

7. Share of public services (12%)

Well we do now clearly see how vastly we affect the climate change with our little doings. So reduce you carbon footprint and do your part!

Reduce it now! Click here: CARBON FOOTPRINT CALCULATOR

Source and further readings:

http://www.carbonfootprint.com/

Wikipedia carbon footprint article

Photo attatchment courtesy of Wikipedia.

Quotable Quotes...

I wanna share with ya'll what I did while in the toilet, doin' 'you know what', hehe. These are just quotes about what's goin' on my mind just recently. I sent them to my 'globe text list' and managed to save just three, about friendship, personal and love...

"Friends save you from suicide, may it be physical, fashion, financial, love, emotional, social, etc. So whoelse would you call as your personal hero? A friend whose there when hope is almost over."

"I am so distracted with the world around me which I thought was mine that I forgot to realize that I haven't built my own steady foundation to even stand in this so called 'real world'. Now I'm shakin' with fear, struggling, dissapointed. Clouded vision should be cleared, I must get over this mess and re-group my derailed path, soon..."

"I'm not sure if I should give you my heart for I would be a fool again if you'd break it, but if I would not make a risk I might regret for the rest of my life what might have been. I could not decide, and I can't hide the fact that I'm probably lovin' you right now."

Hope one of these were routed to you...

My Coin Collection

Ei guys!!! I want to share with y'all my coin collection. I have been collecting coins since highschool but now I kinda stopped. Why did I came up to collecting these? Simple, we got lots of coins at home and it is just right for me to safekeep them. I got US coins, Japanese, Australian, some are European, Middle Eastern, and South/ East/ Southeast Asia. These were mostly given to me by my relatives who travel a lot. Oh, I almost forgot, of course I do have Philippine coin collection that dates back to Americsn Period, isn't that interesting, eh? Check it out, sooner or later you might be collecting too. I also have old paper money from our country, Saudi, HK and Singapore but failed to take pictures of them. Maybe next time, but in the mean time click or copy/ paste the URL link below! Thanks!

Click here: http://www.flickr.com/gp/9454685@N03/907W73

CYBERACTIVISM!

A comment from my last post prompted me to blog a post about online activism/ cyberactivism. Although I have added information about online activism on my page, courtesy of Greenpeace.org, I must've forgotten to introduce CYBERACTIVISM by Greenpeace International!

Translation: Cyberactivism network. Just click and make a change.

You can help spread the awful news about the drastic changes that affects us and ultimately the mother Earth and the ways to alleviate the problem by blogging, like this, or by signing-up to the forum Louder than Words (click the picture on the upper-right corner of this page or fill-up the form at the bottom part of this page). You can also register in Greenpeace.org to participate in submitting petitions and pleas for you personal advocacies. My latest petition is to free the two Japanese activists who were arrested for allegedly stealing whale meat wherein they presented those whale meats as evidence, as a basis of corruption in the midst of government's whaling programme, follow the full story.

I was asked when and where do I plant. Well I can say that I do it here, online! With my busy schedule planting a tree, literally, is unatainable though I would love to that! The last time I planted a tree was on highschool, but I think I did planted cactuses and orchids years after that, haha. Anyways, we have lots of plants at home.

Be an online activist! There are many means on how to fight global warming or whatever advocacy you might be interested with, one of them is to blog online and give information about it. Imagine how many people are logging-online and some of them will be routed to your page and touched by one of your posts. Luckily, that person could be planting the next day or a corporate leader might stop deforestation at will.

Again, my simple advocacy is for a tree to survive, with them we'll survive.

Join Greenpeace.org and be informed!

PASIG EARTH YEAR

This year, Pasig City is 435 years older and we are celebrating it with a BANG! Various programs are laid for the Pasiguenios like the yearly Mutya ng Pasig, Drum and Lyre show, competitions, parades, Senior citizen pageant, etc. but what caught my attention is the EARTH YEAR campaign. Pasig, the Green City, joined the world in fighting against Global Warming. This is a project by the city council headed by our Mayor Bobby Eusebio.

I've been living in this tree plushed city for almost 13 years now. I was originally born in Manila but we migrated to Pasig to literally experience a cleaner environment. I did my elementary years and a year of highschool in Pasig Catholic College, formerly a school exclusively for boys. My family emigrated from Pasig to Antipolo, my second hometown, where i finished my highschool in Roosevelt College Cainta. I spent almost all of my college years in Antipolo, after attending in UST then eventually in UDMC as a nursing student. Before graduation, my family went back to Pasig for undisclosed issues and until now we still reside in a compound with our extended family, like a returnee.

Going back to the Earth Year campaign, the projects that were enumerated to be carried out during the celebation are:

1. Intensified tree-planting (I strongly advocate this!)

2. LPG-conversion of government-owned vehicles

3. Activation of waste-treatment plant (After all, Pasig City claims to be the "Recycling Capital of the Philippines"

4. Installation of Solar-powered lamp posts (Wow, kind of cool, but will it only be aroud the city hall?)

5. Launch of Bantay-ilog (I like this!)

6. and Earth Day celeblation

Apart from these are the Anti-Crime drive, Kalusugan ng Mamamayan project, Family Planning/ Senior Citizen/ Dental Program and Discover Pasig. Apparently, the city government aim to convert Pasig City into a tourist destination.

I do hope that all of these projects, programs and advocacies will be carried out well, as planned, with good results! As the local government aim for a greener city then we should to, from ourselves, project a greener world for a better tommorow!

for more information log on to: PASIG CITY ONLINE!

Campo Crame> Prados de Oro> Campo Crame

June 7, a very busy day, with two commitments.

1. Bevs' birthday, with 'my college barkada', held inside their condo at Camp Crame, at 3PM.

2. Dessa's birthday, my cousin, held at Golden Meadows around 7PM.

Well, this isn't new. I'm always torn between events, and again it is not an option to choose!

My day started by coming home from a night out. Yes, that's how my day starts! I'm home at around 7AM, just rested myself and freshened up. At 2PM, I met up with Benson in front of the church there in Stella Maris and then went to Megamall to buy something for the birthday girl. I love brownies so we did bought 3 boxes from Brownies Unlimited as a gift but secretly for my own craving! We head afterwards to Camp Crame and were almost lost. In front of CIDG I texted Ches, Bev's boyfriend, for help. Take note, this was like my nth time visiting the camp and still I'm lost! No sense of direction!

Finally, we're all there, eating started. Shrimp Tempura and Carbonara are my faves in the table. Stuffed, the birthday girl invited us to her sari-sari store near the barracks. We were joking on how much they add to the products base price. But hey, the store was pretty complete and air-conditioned. Fab. They planned for a possible gimmik though I had to go, but I promised to go with them after the family affair.

Around 8PM I left for Antipolo. I met up with Jay and Laine at Burger King Cainta. At Dessa's, I recharged, had a power nap. Upon waking up I had an A.P. moment with my brother. Apparently, he let himself stay behind while Julie, my sister, should have sent him home with her. They know I'll go somewhere afterwards. She went to work alright but she'll pass by our recidence's vicinity so that shouldn't be a problem. Obviously they savotaged me. Haha. I grunted like a bull over my brother while he's on the phone talking to someone I don't know. Major Attitude Problem. Well, what can I do, I have to send him home, I have no choice.

Along Rosario bridge, Me and Jay looked at each other with a mischevious smile. I'm off to Crame, he's going to Eastwood. We should ride Cubao Alimall but several jeepney's with that signboard already passed. We saw someone we liked. Haha. But that person is not going our way, possibly Ayala FX. Oh well.

Back at Crame I was welcomed by RH Muchos! Massive! Racel ranted his heartaches. Anna and Jun reminisced. Bevs and Ches confided longevity. Mica and Jonas apparently spoke but left. We were left there with MagicSing and few beers. I sang Don't Wanna Lose You by Gloria Estefan. Then in a blink of an eye, I was the spotlight. Sorry guys, it'll bore you. Anyways, the day ended sleeping while sitting and the following day started waking up while still sitting.

I went home, slept and woke up for ASAP.

Lesson Learned: Use your photographic memory to avoid being lost.

Conclusion: Draining yourself after a stressful week 'coz of work is therapeautic in a way. Like a rechargeable battery, it's best that you drain it before recharging fully.

Protect Paradise Forest

Do you know that lathering a soap, munching chips and lavishing yourself with a chocolate actually, in a away, contributes to deforestation and ultimately climate change? See the video.

Dove Onslaught(er) from Greenpeace on Vimeo.

The link? Palm Oil Demand.

Palm oil is a raw material derived from forest trees used for beauty products, foods and biofuels. Many industries/companies, like Unilever, Procter & Gamble, local or international, use palm oil for mass production. Deforestation as a result of palm oil demand is quite alarming, see the result.



Imagine the life that were taken from the habitat, they may have not been deliberately killed but the species (Tribes, Orangutans, Sumatran Tigers, Rafflesia, insects, and of course the Ancient trees! around that area will definitely die, in time, if they are not that fast enough to adapt.

Greenpeace took action, as well as the millions that sent petitions for a moratorium to stop deforestation of the Paradise Forest of Indonesia and Papua New Guinea, one of the largest forest reserve in the world. Well, good thing, Unilever took action by putting a hold on importing palm oil until there is a clear law about the harvesting of palm oil, but the damage has been done, they even said that they have a sustainable supply until 2015. Imagine that! We hope that other companies, big or small players, and even the locals start thinking about this massive destruction and what this would cost us in the near future.

Solution: Control.

Help us!

Post Script: Cadbury has palm oil, hmmm, but I still love it!

For full reports and links, click here!

Plant or Save a Tree

Off to work at 9PM, I look like so haggard. I sweat inside a building that is supposed to be with a working air conditioning system, I don't know If it's busted or something but definitely it's not working as it supposed to be. I go out from work at around 7AM and it's freakin' hot! I know it's summer but this year is sizzlin', the sun is not even directly hittin' me since there are tall buildings all around Eastwood City. The air is humid, I'm perspiring like a leaf with droplets of dew. When I'm back home, I try to sleep in this kind of weather, our fans blow warm air. How am I goin' to be cooled and doze off? Imagine, this summer, all of our electric fans broke down. Could be because of overuse but possibly the engine can't stand the heat as well.

Judging from these facts that I do observe everyday plus the world facts about massive ice melts, forest fires, heat wave, tornadoes, violent storms, etc., well I firmly believe that Global Warming is dead serious.

Basically this is thethe Green-house Effect that our teachers have been telling us when we were in elementary about CO2 being trapped inside the Earth's atmosphere.

Immediately I thought of a tree.

Doesn't trees consume CO2 to snythesize their food? They could be our bestfriend, or inevetibly our saviour. I myself have experience a help from these sturdy, living, but non-ambulatory trees (compared to Elks... toinks!) once in a while. It gives us shade from the dreary sun, shelter from the gloomy rain, food for hunger and a carving canvass for emo-lovers.

I've been dreaming of planting a Sequoia or a Sycamore.

Imagine the big help these trees can offer us with this 'Earth Problem'. But we have to help ourselves as well since trees, especially the trunks, are major raw material for production and construction. It should be mandated that for every tree cut is equivalent to five trees planted, not relocated.

Plea: Plant or save a tree. Moreover, if you are unable to do so please at least do something else that could count as a help to alleviate the problem.

Post Script: By the way, is smoking a contributory factor to Global Warming? How about being just plain HOT?

hate that i love you

Ayoko na maramdaman itong nararamdaman kohanggang ngayon! Ang tagal na nito eh. Obvious naman na hindi mo na ako mahal, na wala ka nang pakielam, pero bulag parin ako.

Simpleng text binibigyan ko ng meaning. Hay, kailan ba darating ang araw na maski magkita tayo at mag-'tumbling' ka sa harap ko eh 'I won't even look, for you to assume that I don't really care 'coz I really don't but truly I intend to do thatfor you to assume that I don't'. Gets?

So the bottom line is I will still care pero sana wala na yung "magic" mo that always keeps me at awe everytime I see you. It's like you're a poison, a stun...

I feel like playing DOTA!

Summer Addict Mode (An Overload)

I was in my addict mode this past weekend. I went to two night swimmings with four hours sleep in between, and take note we went to the same resort. Funny, right?

My college friends planned to have a reunion a month ago and we are gonna do it at the same resort we went two years ago which is Nine Waves in Ampid-1, San Mateo. Nine waves is quite memorable to us since before the public knew about the resort we tried it out first. It was after the Nursing Board Exam. We wanted to relax before we receive the results, just to relieve the tension. But anyways, during our stay there in 2006 it's just the ten of us. Yeah, we had the whole resort for ourselves. It was like a soft opening, they are acctually cementing the pavements at that time. Going back, 9-10 is the set date, the call tine is 4PM but I had to be late 'coz my shift's until 5PM. After shift I ate at Chowking Eastwood City with my BFF's then left immediately. I arrived at around 6:30Pm at Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf Araneta Center, our meeting place. We left for San Mateo at around 8PM taking the Commonwealth Road to dodge the heavy traffic of Friday night. While on the way I dozed off the woke up realizing that I'm the only one who wont have any partner later, on this night getaway. Imagine, four pairs and me. How sad, right? But nothing to worry, I'm going to be the star anyways. haha. At around 9PM we arrived hungry for food and a dip in the wave pool. Our resident mother Bevs took charge of the rentals. She rented a hotel-like cottage an umbrella near the wave pool. We settled first in our room before heading to the resort. There we're many people that night, I don't know if it's always like this, there we're even Korean boys and girls. We went to our umbrella to have our dinner but befire that we had to grill our food. First oof, the FRESH TILAPIA. Yes, it's so fresh that it was not yet scaled and the intestines and the gills were still there! Ew! Me and Jun don't have any choice but to do it but there's another problem, knife! Good thing the nearby elderly neighbors pitied our gloomy situation, they let us borrow their super dull knife. Well what can do? During our "Palenke" moment, Jonas started setting up the griller. Chester is in-charge of the grilling of the fish and hotdogs. Our other foods? Pork BBQ, Pork and Chicken Sisig, Roast Chicken and chicha. While still grilling I can't help but trying out he sisig, there are two varieties and there's chicharon toppings. It was heavenly HOT and SPICY! Then something dreadful happened!!!! See my last post then you'll know what. Well anyways after that incident we dipped ourselves. There were three pools there, a Kiddie pool, Slide pool and the Wave pool. In the wave pool the 'wave engines' starts to 'make waves' every hour for fifteen minutes and as claimed, there were 9 waves, I think. Me, Ras and Jun swam towards the deep part of the wave pool while it was making waves, we thought we could make it but I think we almost died. We went back scared and laughing. Next stop is the Slide pool, we spent most of our time there talking about what to drink later that eve. The girls, Ana, Bevs, Mica and Ina were there as well with their traditional open forum and we are hoping that during the drinking session that will happen later there would be the traditional 'iyakan'. Cheezy, but it's a barkada thing. We bought Red Horse and San Mig Light at a nearby sari-sari store outside the resort premises, good thing we had a room so it's just ok to bring liquor. Upstairs in our room we started the drinking spree. Ina had to pass 'coz she came from a shift. Mica had to pass as well for some unknown reason. We started off with Generoso brandy. Woah! Where did that came from, apparently Ras bought a surprise party starter. After we, the guys, gulped up the whole bottle contents of the brandy we zoomed to the resort and swam just for fun. A bit tipsy, halfway down the resort premises I forgot I that I am wearing my last short pants. Well, nothing could stop me from having fun, I removed my army cargo shorts and revealed my black boxer briefs no one's there anyways. Whatever. haha. We went back to our room 'coz the operating hours of the resort is up until 4AM only. We continued drinking RH then finished it off with SML. You can tell I drank too many 'coz I'm stealing 'tagay' from other people. Drunk and wasted I rested my head and next thing you know, I'm asleep. By the way, that was almost six in the morning.

I opened my eye with headache and body pains at around 10AM. First thing that came to my mind is that I have another night swimming to attend and the call time is 4PM in Marikina. WTF! huhu. I'm still tired but I have to go home and take some rest to re-fuel my energy reserves. I quickly took a shower and left with some of my college friends who have work that day. The room can be occupied until 6PM so my other friends who were not leaving yet we're joking that I could go back and stay there for a while. I left San Mateo by myself, head home and slept at around 12PM

After 4 hours I woke up not feeling well, still light-headed. I don't even know how I managed going to Marikina with this feeling. Our meeting place is supposed to be at Ellaine's pad in Vista Valley but we still had to buy our food so we went to Robinson's and have a Chicken Inasal resevered for us. It was raining hard at that time, we, I, Ellaine, Sarah, Juvie and Jay, had to stay inside the supermarket and goof around. The feeling of acid in my stomach is ranting. I thought eating something could stop the this but no, I think I made it worse. I was nauseous and I feel I had to go. I pooped in a public restroom, this sucks. I have diarrhea, could it be the sisig. That sisig hit me hard twice, damn you sisig Hooray, damn you. Well it could be indigestion from the variety of liquors we drank. When the rain subsided we immediately head to Nine Waves. Yup, the same resort. Same routine, we rented an umbrella and paid our tickets. I really can't contain the feeling that I had at that time. I vomitted thrice, I think. I lost appetite, tried to eat some but I vomitted again. Oh God, I'm bulemic. hehe. Well after vomitting all liquids my stomach can't absorb, miraculously I suddenly felt well. Now I know what Ash is talking about, the relief of puking. I drank my bestfriend - coffee. Damn, in no time I'm back i'm business! I ate, swam, smoked, dipped, hunted...... hunting? No, I mean fishing. There were many fises there to bait. Milkfishes, Tilapias and Lapu-lapu. Mudfishes were there as well but they won't interest me. haha. Before fixing ourselves and go home we had our pictorial with the whole resort as the audience, we posed as if no one's looking. I suddenly felt tired, as if my energy surge were lowered. We left the vicinity at around 4AM. I'm offically sick while on the way home. I'm feverish, hot and lovely..... um, lonely and reddened. I immediately slept when I arrived. I could not think of anything but rest my head, back and legs on my bed. I dozed off...

Conclusion: It was fun, but unhealthy, but I can't just choose between a group of friends. I'll just have to make the most of it while abusing myself. hehe. Take each moment with your friends 'Like You'll Never See Them Again'.

Lesson Learned: Don't let an upset stomach get in the way, use it to enslave your friends.

Post Script: I forgot to post my post-Subic escapade. I replied to the Clark invitation. I stayed there for four days and three nights. I never really did anything there but I was HAPPY... on those days.......

Derailed Wire!

Almost one and a half month have past already when I had my braces on and it's still hard to chew. This is unfair!

Two days ago something dreadful happened, I was with my friends, celebrating our adult life, night swimming....

Food: Sisig (from Sisig Hooray) with chicharon; pork and chicken variety

It tastes soooooo good! While munchin' the chicharon my wire went off (left lower jaw). OMG! I have no idea what to do, I'm not equipped for this kind of stress. I'm not even sure if this is possible. Should I go to my dentist? But It's almost 12AM and I haven't swam yet. The end of the wire even poked my inner cheek. Ouch, huhu. Well, as always, I'm just gonna pretend everything gonna be alright and head straight to the public shower room and try to fix this shit.

1st try: The wire should be inserted to a tube like reservoir but it went somewhere else.... is it in my gums?????? why is this happenin' to me????

2nd try: Well done! I did it with an audience. Yeah, people are lookin' at me while im tryin to fix it. I know I look stupid or something but they don't have to linger, ignorants. hehe. Deep inside I was cryin' for help. As in, help, help, help!

Then I went back and did my thing, EAT! There's pork BBQ, Hotdogs, Roast Chicken and Grilled Tilapia... nothings gonna stop this hungry beast, we're back in bussiness!

Lesson Learned: Don't try to eat wat you can't eat. huh???

Ngunit, Subalit, Datapwat (Nosebleed + Teardrops)

Bakit kailangan mong lumisan?
Talaga bang hindi mo na ako mahal?
O ayaw mo lang, o hindi mo pa kayang manindigan
At amining ako lang ang nag-iisa
Sa bagay, hindi ko naman pwedeng akuin ang buhay
Kung ayaw naman syang pahawak
Ngunit kung ipapaubaya mo sa aking puso ang iyong sarili
Ay ibibigay ko ang lahat
Tulad dati, hangang ngayon
Para sa akin ay sapat na ang lahat ng ginawa ko
Ngunit parang hindi para sa'yo
May gusto ka pang iba na ayaw nong sabihin
May minimithi ka pang hindi ko maibigay
Sana malaman ko ito para makahanap ako ng paraan
Upang ito'y maibigay ko sa'yo
Ngunit kung ang gusto o pangarap mo ay 'di ako
panalangin ko'y sabihin mo na
Lalo akong nasasaktan kapang iniiwan mo ako ng ganito lamang
Walang dahilan, walang sanhi
Sana kung ayaw mo na talaga
Tapusin mo na
Alam mo namang hindi ko magagawang mang-iwan
Hindi ko kayang umalis, hindi ko kayang magpaalam
Ang alam ko lang gawin ay mahalin ka
Kung gusto mo na talagang lumisan
Pakawalan mo na ako!

Subic

I had a wonderful time this weekend. My family and I went on a summer getaway to kill boredom, sweat and money. The trip was set last month; 5th to 6th of April is the date we shouldn’t break. All agreed. Subic, here we come!

Before the set date came I applied as an agent in a BPO company in Cubao. I was scheduled for a final interview April 5 at 6:45 in the morning. I never thought that I would be scheduled that early since I passed my application near the weekend, I presumed that the HR operations would start next week. Bad timing! My brother and I were supposed to be picked up around 5:30 in the morning the same day! I had to make some arrangements, I asked my aunt to just pick me up at around 7AM because of my final interview. They gladly agreed! Thanks to them I don’t have to drop one. Well anyways I passed the final interview and was scheduled a job offer at 11 AM, the same day. WTF! I asked the operations if they could reschedule my job offer to accommodate my planned getaway; they replied that my job offer would be placed on hold and I’ll just have to wait or a call from them next week. I have no choice since I asked my aunt to fetch me in Cubao, I had to turn down the would-be job offer just wait for a phone call.

At around 7:15AM I got out of the building and head to the parking lot of Araneta Coliseum. I quickly saw my uncle’s white pick-up truck with people around, holding Jollibee plastic bags. Ok, I haven’t eaten yet, I’m hungry but I just had my braces on a couple of weeks ago. I can’t eat a burger with a leaf; I mean with a lettuce, it will stay on my wires for a long time. But anyways I still ate it, what can I do? I’m starving to death! We left Quezon City and by 8 AM we’re at NLEX. We stopped over at a gasoline station to answer the call of nature. Then head for my most coveted destination, as of the moment, Subic!


Traffic got us at around 10 AM in San Fernando, Pampanga. My other uncle, together with my other relatives, who left earlier, is already there in Subic. They’re asking where we at. We are currently trapped in a jam while my freaking brother almost always ask us where we at as well, for some bullshit reason. Annoying! It’s almost noon when we reached the All Hands Beach in Subic, just behind the Subic International Airport. I wonder why they named the resort All Hands, maybe… I don’t know. Anyways, the beach was inviting so we quickly dipped in and soaked up the sun. No waves at all, we’re like in a bay or something. You can ride a Jet-ski pulling a banana boat for 300 pesos. My aunt actually wants to try the ‘Banana Float’, is that a drink or something? You can do water cycling as well. The sun is so powerful, yes powerful, it drained me. We ate lunch and prepared to head for the booked hotel room. By the way my cousin Luigi, while goofing around, accidentally showed ‘himself’ to a tourist.

While on our way to Legenda Hotel and Resort we were stopped by a traffic enforcer, saying we should do full stop whenever we see a STOP print on the road even though there are no vehicles around. In Subic, there are no traffic lights; the road plan is patterned from an American suburb obviously because Subic was a US Airbase. Inside the resort, as if swimming in the beach is not enough, my cousins jumped and dived into the hotels pool. I was there to watch them over because two of my other cousins are just a bit taller than the 4-foot-pool. Yes I was there to guard them but I’m kind of tired so I almost dozed off. Luckily, the elders came down to look over the kids. Wow, did I just use ‘the Elders’? That’s so LOTR-ish. I went up our hotel room and tried to sleep but I left my ‘sleepyhead’ by the pool. I just watched cable and bored myself to death. Then came dinner, after that we went outside to the Boardwalk, equivalent to Manila’s Baywalk except for the fact the there in Subic you can actually feel you’re beside the seashore minus the smell of a canal, if you know what I mean. That night the Kitty Girls are going to be performing their latest hit which is… um… the… yes, their song. But sadly we didn’t have the time to watch it, ‘the elders’ have to retire, as early as possible. But before that we watched some bands, ate and, personally, I drank a bottle of booze. The brand: RH. Back at the hotel room I washed myself to freshen up and retired for the day.

That night was so weird. Picture this out, from the left of the bed was my BIG cousin Iggy, next is my shitty brother Erick, me, and ‘Mr. Present in Every Outing’, who is actually a thin little kid. In the morning, I woke up in a depressing position, Iggy is on the floor and Mr. PiEO cranked up half of the bed. Amazing, then I remembered that deep in the night Mr. PiEO is subconsciously trying to push us away, as if swimming.

The next day, 6th of April, we ate at Jollibee for breakfast. Two consecutive days Jollibee is our breakfast, I didn’t even like that fast food that much, except for the Chickenjoy and Jolly spaghetti! We went back to the hotel, and for the last time, I hope, my cousins swam again. It’s around 10 AM; it’s so hot, why not dip in as well? We goofed around, we tried all sorts of horse playing and wrestling. We had fun under the sun. The elders said that we had to check out ASAP because they want to go to the Freeport and buy some stuffs.

At the lobby of the hotel, there’s a very big chandelier that looks like a jellyfish, it’s gleaming, glittering. At the Freeport we had our lunch in Chowking then after that we head to the stores. My brother’s been bugging me to buy him a coin purse that costs 40PhP, he got what he wanted. Then he saw another merchandise, a stupid necklace, tribal theme, very ethnic, 50Php. He asked me again for it, but no not that, it’s so stupid looking I tell you. It’s time for us to go, at the last minute he got what he wanted. Surprisingly he got 50PhP somewhere inside his pocket. Then I thought have I just been tricked? Now I understand why he wants a coin purse ‘coz he was going to put some money on it, I didn’t know he had it at that moment. What am I saying? Whining over 40PhP?

Anyways, on our way home we used Macapagal Hi-way. The view was magnificent; we saw several vast rice fields, dead rivers and mountains. Mount Arayat then came to our attention, now she’s the main attraction. Along the way, I noticed that the ends of the mountains and hills were removed, or was carved into mini valleys to give way to the long, long hi-way. You will also notice that the sides of the carved mountain ends are cemented, and drainages were installed to prevent erosion. Quite clever! After that long ride, we did our last stop over at a gasoline station before heading straight to the Metro. Another gift shop came into my brother’s view. He wants two friendship bracelets, the nerve, but I bought him those anyways.

That was a very long weekend. We reached Pasig at around 4 PM. Tired and out, but the relaxation hasn’t ended yet. The 7th of April, which is a Monday, was declared as a legal holiday by PGMA. She really gave us a very long weekend. I uploaded our pictures from my cellphone to my uncle’s laptop, while doing that I then started this blogpost.

Later that night we’re planned to eat "Goto" at Tiendesitas. Maybe after that I can retire for the day and resume to our daily routine of a bum when Tuesday comes.

Just to let you guys know I just received a text, an invitation to go Clark, Pampanga for another getaway. I won’t definitely back out. So Clark, here I come!

Without the Sight of You

apr.28.2008

You never really cared
Then someone came along
Inviting me for a chance on love
I was still waiting for you to step up, but I left

The wait is too long
I thought I could just hibernate
And wake up with you in-love
We had our chance, tine and space blew it

Did you really think I was that naive?
Sometimes I felt I would die without you
But now thinking, I am still standing
Maybe I'm better off without you

I never really felt the love that I needed
Or that I expected
Am I asking too much?
Was I hungry for love?

I'm almost ready to give it all again
But not with you
But to whom I, again, felt the spark
Without the sight of you.

Are You A Vampire?

I was in my early high school when I first took a chance in reading one of my mom’s books, she was fond of reading. I see selections from romance, politics, social and sci-fi, but what caught my eye is the eerie paperback about a vampire. The book was Interview With The Vampire by Anne Rice, first published in 1977 in Canada, my mom’s paperback was printed way back 1993. I was really curious about this Vampire chronicles so I started reading. It probably took me 3 days or so after putting down the book. I think the book just tired me. I understood the story, or so I thought, but I don’t remember if I did raved on it or something. But a spark of flame of belief came into me, about vampires being real or not and immortality. Do I believe in vampires back then? Yes. Did I sometimes wish of being one? Yes. Was I afraid of being bitten by one? Definitely not! It’s as if I want to experience a bite from a vampire, an ecstasy, owning.

Several years have passed, after the Queen of the Damned (an adaptation of Rice’s novel, a part of vampire chronicles) came out of the cinemas and blew me away because of the neo-gothic Lestat, another book by the same author, of the same theme came into my possession – Vittorio the Vampire, published 1999. As claimed by Rice, this one’s not part of the chronicles, it was about an Italian gentleman’s becoming as a vampire with Italy’s Golden Age as the background. I was not at awe after finishing the novel but was shocked with the vast information that I never assumed a book about a vampire could offer. It was a history slash art book but is definitely a fiction. I immediately ran back to our bookcase and looked for the Interview with the Vampire novel and read it non-stop. Now I did appreciate the gothic-emo-charm of Lestat and Claudia, and Armand, the book. Rice’s description of eroticism in the novel is striking. Tarnished innocence and awakening is her niche. As well as falling in the deep wells of darkness were solemnly told. Worked well for me, a six year old imagination paired with a very openly-curious, well-read adult mind in the midst of confusion and being lost, perfect!

Just recently, I came across this article in Time Magazine, dated March 17, 2008 with the unassumingly happy US Senator Hilary Clinton on the cover. It’s about readers asking Anne Rice questions; reasonably the article is titled 10 Questions. Apparently, Rice has switched into writing about the Lord (latest book – Christ the Lord: Road to Cana) and that she had vowed not to write anything about vampires, ultimately about Lestat, ever or perhaps not in the old way anymore. She says that she would write another novel about Lestat that imposes his redemption to God. "– wresting with the existence of God", Rice explained. Anne Rice was a self-proclaimed atheist but now a believer. What’s the reason for her conversion? She as well wrestled with God’s existence, and with constant searching faith came back to her.

On my point of view, I think Rice is the vampire she has been writing all along, all these years. By the way, she doesn’t believe in vampires at all, who in these contemporary times? "Vampires are perfect metaphors for the lost soul," as Rice shared. A clear as it is, as personified, she was the lost soul that found redemption.

Right now, thinking about these things, I guess I’m a vampire. Are you one of us?

One of America's most read and celebrated authors, Anne Rice (born October 4, 1941) is known for weaving the visible and supernatural worlds together in epic stories that both entertain and challenge readers. Her books are rich tapestries of history, belief, philosophy, religion, and compelling characters that examine and extend our physical world beyond the limits we perceive.Anne lives and works in California. Anne's life experiences and intellectual inquisitiveness provide her with constant inspiration for her work.

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With You by Chris Brown

Guys, i do "Love" the new song by Chris Brown, it's With You.
See the vid, hear the lyrics....

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I need you boo, (Ooh)
I gotta see you boo (Hey)
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight [x2]

[Verse 1]

Hey! Little mama, Ooh, you a stunna
Hot..lil figure,
Yes, you a winner
And im so glad to be yours,
You're a class all your own
And..
Ooh, little cutie
When..you talk to me I swear..the whole world stops
You're..my sweetheart
And im so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind and..

[Bridge]

You mean to me
What i mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
Cos if i gotchu,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And..

[Chorus]

Oh! I'm into you,
And girl, No..one else would do,
Cuz with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now
I..know
I can't be the only one,
I bet his heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of his life who feel..
Wat i feel when i'm

With you [x5]
Girl..
With you [x5]

[Verse 2]

Oh Girl! I don't want nobody else,
Without you, there's no one left then,
You're like Jordans on Saturday,
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now,
Hey! little shawty,
Say..you care for me,
You know..I care for you,
You know...that I'll be true,
You know..that i won't lie,
You know..that i would try,
To be your everything..yeah..

[Bridge]

Cuz if i got chu,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all. And..
[Chorus]
Oh! I'm into you,
And girl,
No..one else would do,
Cuz with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I..know
I can't be the only one,
I bet his heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of they life who feel..
Wat i feel when i'm

With you [x5]
Ohh..
With you [x5]
Yeah Heh..

[Bridge 2]

And I..
Will never try to deny,
Cuz you are my whole light,
Cuz if you ever let me do,
I would die..
So I won't find,
I don't need another woman,
I just need your all and nothing,
Cos' if I got that,
And I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my ??
I need you boo,
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight [x2]

Woo Ooohh..
Yeah~

They need it boo,
They gotta see their boo,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight,
Hearts all over the world tonight [x2]

[Chorus]

Oh! I'm into you,
And girl,
No..one else would do,
Cuz with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I..know
I can't be the only one,
I bet his heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of they life who feel..
Wat i feel when i'm

With you [x5]
Girl..
With you [x5]
Ohh..

Christopher Maurice Brown born May 5, 1989, better known as Chris Brown, is an American pop and R&B singer, dancer, and actor. Latest album "Exclusive".

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Alicia Keys - One of a Kind!

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Like You'll Never See Me Agian
by: Alicia Keys

If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn't feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I'd be wishing you were here
To be everything that I'd be looking for

I don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you'll love me
Love me like you'll never see me again

Oh Oh Ohhhhh

How many really know what love is?
Millions never will
Do you know until you lose it
That it's everything that we are looking for
When I wake up in the morning
You're beside me
I'm so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking for

I don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed
So everytime you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again(can you do that for me baby)
Every time you touch me(see we don't really know)
Touch me like this is the last time(see everyday we never know)
Promise that you'll love me(I want you to promise me)
Love me like you'll never see me again(like you'll never see me again)

Ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh ohhh




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My raves:

Oh! I wish I could make songs like this! Alicia's writing skills is phenomenal! Very honest. Her voice is soulful, it pierces through your heart. The song arragement is classic! Love that piano thing! Love this girl!

Got all her studio albums. My fave's?

Song's from A Minor
1. How Come You Don't Call Me -hopelessly in love, waiting for nothing, haha, I can relate
2. Fallin' -again, being in love... and out of love
3. Rock Wit U -love the beats!
4. A Woman's Worth -for all of the ladies!

The Diary of Alicia Keys
1. Karma -I do believe in karma
2. Heartburn -love the beats! exactly how you feel when you're in love or a have a passion
3. You Don't Know My Name -the anthem of secret admirers
4. If I Ain't Got You -one and only love!
5. If I Was Your Woman -confessions of a true love
6. Diary -love the duet part
7. Dragon Days -very true, needing somebody, "like desert needs water"

As I Am
1. Superwoman -your mom's anthem
2. No One -one and only love... again
3. Like You'll Never See Me Again -
4. Lesson Learned -experience is the best education
5. The Thing About Love -about risking for the sake of love

I wanna add some more songs but I can't remember them. hehe

Alicia J. Augello Cook AKA Alicia Keys is one of a kind. A true artist.
Alicia Keys born January 25, 1980 is an American R&B, soul, and neo soul singer-songwriter, pianist, record producer, actress, music video director, philanthropist, and author who has sold over forty-one million albums and singles worldwide as of 2007, and has won numerous awards, including eleven Grammy Awards, eleven Billboard Music Awards, three American Music Awards, and fourteen NAACP Image Awards. Latest album "AS I AM".

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NOW!

It's now or never!

I've been facing this dilemma for the past 6 years and yet I'm still not decided. Along the way I chose paths I thought I want, I thought I will stick with, but 'till now I'm struggling with myself. I want a clean thought on what I want to do with my life. I want a goal. It's so hard to set one if you have fear and doubt. I have many of those, believe me. Back then I know what I really like but alongside that I know what I need to do. I was so busy planning my future that I quickly forgot what I really wanted, my passion. I chose paths that I think was right, until now it is, for everyone. But for me? I'n not really sure. I have to decide as soon as possible. I'm twenty three years old and time won't halt for me. I must act now! The goddam' time is running out!

My problem is still the future, I want to be fulfilled.

Here's the thing, I wanna do something really bad that if i fail to do it this lifetime it means that I missed a very big part of my life - my fulfillment. Before this crisis I have a definite path. I didn't saw life like this before. I thought that it is as simple as living each day as it is. But now the word and concept of being fulfilled became big suddenly. Maybe because of my past and current experiences, it kinda' molded my visions. I have a wide variety of options but I'm so incapable of deciding firmly 'coz I don't want to fail. If I choose to follow my current path I'm afraid I could not follow my ultimate dream or even close. At the same time I'm so afraid pursuing a dream that doesn't guarantee a bright future but fulfillment alone. I know want I want but I worry 'coz my family probably don't.

In these trying times, I can only dream and fulfill a better life. This is the only option. But how about my dream, my personal fulfillment, how about me? Should I shake it off again and worry about it some other time? Success is so near but will I be happy?

God, am I so self centered right now?

I feel that I should repay all the people that helped me lay a brighter future for myself and for them as well. I know I have to get them out of the shit we are in right now, but can't I do that while reaching for my dream? So basically I'm torn with my decisions about my future, the present, what I have, What we don't have, and the fututre that I want and the better future for us. I know I must act now. I can't sit herewaiting for it to happen! I kow it's stupid to be feeling this right now, I should have known what to do years ago and pursue it. I should have done that, but to regret is stupid as well.

Right now I'm trying to intertwine my options, needs and wants and see what it can turn into. I really do hope this works for me and for everybody. This time I must be firm and act to get what I really love - fulfillment in life.

Goodbye 24

I've been wanting to tell you this for the longest time

But everytime I try to do so, or I think I already did

I always stop

Hope and wait

As if there's something

Something left for me to hold on to, and to have

But unfortunately there's nothing

Nothing.

Just now it came in to me...

I have to say GOODBYE

As soon as I can, 'coz a second might change my mind.