While I was looking at my cellphone's calendar this morning I thought, "I can't wait for Thursday!" Tomorrow is Monday, Cathlab is closed because it's a holiday (Araw ng Kagitingan) so no work for us! Yahoo! But a lot of time for my mind to wander and think, deep. I hate thinking too deep, I have to do something or I should be somewhere. haha! Tuesday and Wednesday is a regular working day for all Cathlab staff this week, the family is complete, kind of looking forward for this as well. Then come Maundy Thursday and Good Friday, holidays! No work and of course no pay. Saturday was declared by our OIC as the whole staff's off this week to compliment the Sunday regular off, thus no work for four consecutive days equals VACATION! The same people from the Anawangin getaway, including me, thought to have another unforgettable experience. Some of our options are Mt. Pulag (Benguet/ Nueva Ecija), Sagada, Cinco Picos (Subic), Gulugod Baboy (Anilao , Batangas) and Pagudpod but after careful calculation of budget and pros and cons we opted for Nagsasa Cove, Zambales, much like Anawangin, where Aetas still resides. Earlier this morning Me and ma'am Chase were planning about this trip, there were eight of us coming, Me, Chase, Welmar, Fhiley, Mitch and her son Matt, MJ and Jon. Chase took liberty of polishing the itinerary, tomorrow we'll take care of bus reservations and the boats. While going on, thru text, with what to eat during our two days and one night stay at the cove a whirlwind of serious emotions flooded about heartaches and false hopes. The next thing you know we where beaming emo quotes. Mga Emotero't Emotera! hehe! Here are some of my quotes:
"True love doesn't have a happy ending, true love never ends." - I think I've read this somewhere.
"When I was younger I was so excited to be in-love, then it came. Now, all I know is I'm afraid to fall." "Love hurts, it pierces us so deep that as we dug to see how far it scarred our heart we realizes one thing, it changed us." "Though oftentimes love is hurtful, it is the only thing in this world that doesn't seem to exist but gives life to our very soul." "Sometimes we ask what have we done wrong to feel this sadness. Most of the time we just did something right, sacrifice."
There it goes and we settled for two kilos of CHICKEN adobo for our breakfast 'coz we'll be taking the early morning trip from Caloocan! Whew! I'll start jotting down all the things that I'll need so I won't cram on Thursday. But wait, where's my board shorts?
It's been a while since i blogged my life. I missed it. As I've said on my last post I kind of found it hard to find time and sometimes if I had to do a full feature I have to give my full effort.
It's around 12NN now and I'm super bored, it's my off today and I really can't think of anything to do. I don't want to go out in this kind of weather, sunny humid shit. You'd be smelling like a cow in minutes of standing under the direct heat of the freaking sun.
Well anyways, what have I been doing? I'm working as a cathlab nurse in St. Luke's Medical Center as of now. Why can't I write alongside career? I can actually but the previous months have been tough, slight change of lifestyle and routine. One can say a 360 degree turn.
It started when I was still working as a customer support representative, I was invited by my friend Abi to a 'despedida' party organized by the cathlab personnel St. Luke's. There I knew about this 'cathlab thing' and got super interested and applied for a vacant position immediately on a working day. This was around October and the formal training was started September, we were 6 then (with my bestfriend Ellaine). It was a three month training of hardwork and perseverance. On our third month a 7th wheel came, Ms. Pey. They only got to pick a handful from the 7 of us by the end of 2008. Luckily I got in, and my bestfriend as well, good job eh? I'm deployed here in Quezon City and she'll be at The Fort. Now we'll just have to prove our worth as professionals.
Alongside this are our side trips. I was opened to a door of new horizon that didn't even count as an interest in my 23 years of existence, mountaineering. I'm so engrossed with urban life and yes I do advocate the preservation of our forest and the like but experiencing the nature in a different way was really a new thing for me, I GOT SUPER EXCITED!
Mt. Anawangin devirginized me. We, some of the cathlab staff, actually went there November last year but only to the cove by boat not by mountain traverse. So it was basically an outing the first time. But January this year I really want to try it big time, "I'm going to climb a mountain!" And I did, and it was dead hard! There was actually a time in the middle of the climb when I thought that 'this is crazy, this is indeed down right crazy, and I can't believe this is really happening', good thing with our pack is our beloved Dr. Nick who's already around 50. Why? Because despite of his youthful strength and disposition, he's a newbie as well, like me. So every time he pauses for a break I could not help but clap, I don't want 'the delay' come from a 24 year old who seems to be fit, from me! Upon reaching the summit it was majestic. All is worth! Now the only thing I have to do is go down to the cove, it was seductively inviting but it's too far and it's scorching hot. The trek going down is fast but dangerous and 'dunged' by the stowaway tamaraws. hehe For the second time I was captivated by the cove, I was again mesmerized by the different facets of it, the lush greens of the pine trees, the rocky side of the beach, the smooth side of it, and the breakwater part. These were some of our pictures, courtesy of Dr. Nick. The last two are mine. Truly a breakaway from stress. Next stop would be Mt. Pinatubo. Next blog I'll probably write my full account of Anawangin.
Back to reality. Reality isn't that nice but we have to live it. It's a balance.
These were the highlights of my life these past few months, alongside this is an inspiration that I held onto. Without it some part won't be bearable.
By the way, just a little story, I'm almost 38,000 PHP poorer. In my line of work I can't make any mistakes because everything is important. I was mistakenly given a go signal to open a 14K sterile item which won't be needed. Then just yesterday a housekeeper crumpled and disposed two items, 12K each, under my custody. Brilliant! I'm just new and I have these under my badge!
A lesson for me, a lesson for us.
Oh another one, last weekend I watched "You Changed My Life" twice, Saturday and Sunday at Robinson's Galleria! Just like Sarah and John Lloyd's 1st team up "A Very Special Love" which I watched twice as well. hehe, bentang-benta!
I'm having a hard time finding time to post a new blog. I'm in a transition. But coming soon, my cathlab experience, parties, trips, twilight, heartaches, happiness, interests and personals. Pics are available in my Friendster profile. Thanks.
Last Monday, my BBFs went out for a date. Just to catch up on everybody else's new thingy's, gossips, lovelife and non-sensical stuffs. Evie got a new phone and she was also so ecstatic about the Boyzone reincarnation that she already got their new single. She even tried to reserve a copy of their album that wasn't out yet. Then come Ash who has a flourishing lovelife and is still juggling work from his studies. Finally, Abi, who just celebrated her birthday yesterday who expresses her company's marked VTO occurence and her new slave. haha.
While browsing Ash's iPod, I found this new song. A live collaboration performance for the benefit of cancer research programme, "Just Stand Up to Cancer." Vocals for this performance we're Mariah Carey, Beyoncé, Mary J. Blige, Rihanna, Fergie, Sheryl Crow, Nicole Scherzinger, Natasha Bedingfield, Miley Cyrus, Leona Lewis, Carrie Underwood, Keyshia Cole, LeAnn Rimes, Ashanti and Ciara. Here's the video clip form youtube.com (notice the absence of Sheryl, LeAnn and Ashanti, but they're on the record, I think nicole replaced some of their parts.):
Stand Up To Cancer (SU2C) is a non-profit organization established by a group of media, entertainment, scientific and philanthropic leaders, whose lives have all been affected by cancer in significant ways. A joint initiative with the Entertainment Industry Foundation and the American Association for Cancer Research (AACR), Stand Up To Cancer is leveraging industry resources -- people, as well as mediums such as television and the web -- to fight against cancer as never before. They're putting together the best and the brightest minds in cancer research -- those on the edge of accomplishment -- investing in their projects and taking the bureaucratic obstacles out of their way. They are building interdisciplinary "Dream Teams" of scientists, clinicians, technicians and other experts, who will focus on a specific cancer problem.
Raising conciousness is one of the agenda so here comes blogging, a Virtual Stand Up. After all, my grandfather died of Leukemia, and most probably I'm going to die with one of the many cancer types, no kidding.
You can donate to JSU2C if you want but it's better to just donate here in the Philippines. We have so many foundations here like The Cancer Institute Foundation, Inc. ( http://www.cifphil.org/ ) and Cancer Warriors Foundation, Inc. ( http://www.cancer-warriors.org/index.html ).
Nag-depress-depressan ako this weekend. Emo mode ang drama. I sent uber-emo quote and it goes like this...
Why am I always the loser? Why must I be the one who must hold on to something I can't have? Why can't I be found by the one who could really love me for who I am? Why should I always pretend that I'm ok when inside it hurts being alone and at the same time afraid of being with someone who would leave me, broken? Why do I feel this way when I almost have everything I should be thankful for? Why can't I sleep at night not thinking what tomorrow holds for me?
Why? Why?
Naka-text ko si Abi. Sabi nya I can't please everybody, that I should not create a likeable personality 'coz it can be dangerous, it'll compromise me. That I need to get out of my shell and straighten out my principles. Sabi ko, "Kaya nga I'm under construction eh!"
Siguro yung feeling ko is a mixture of everything, transition of work from a call center rep for a year to a nurse trainee. Tapos wala pang sweldo (though it's not really a problem since may magulang pa ako, hehe). Three days off tpos walang magawa kundi manood ng Koreanovela DVD's at manghiram ng PSP. Oo nga pla, try looking for the Korean mini series "If in love... like them", medyo tragic, 4 episodes lang kaya hindi masyado nakakatamad panoorin.
Kasi naman eh, tungkol nanaman sa love... hay, nakakahiya...
Kanina nagbasa lang ako ng FHM ng sister ko, yung Ladies Confessions section saka Bar Room Jokes, wala kasi magawa. Later this day Cathlab procedures and duties naman. Back to reality!
I just remembered, si Ely Buendia ay isinugod ulit sa ospital during the Eraserheads reunion. Nakakalungot talaga. Inaaya nga ako ng college friends ko na umatend sa gig na ito eh, sponsored daw ng Marlboro for E-heads fans na smokers. Pero nagkaproblema daw or something kaya sinalo ng isang radio station ang gig. But anyways, second or third hospitalization na yata niya ito eh. From what I know Ely already undergone Angioplasty (arterial stenting due to lumen occlusion, etc.) sa St. Luke's. That's a pretty risky and high-peso procedure. Let's just pray for his speedy recovery. Live long Our Generation's Rock Icon!
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About Me
Godfrey Cua
I'm simply a rational person. Open minded. you can throw all your shit on me and I'll bear it. Unfortunately you and I are not sure if I care. But if I do, I really do. I use words to release my tension, anxiety, fears, frustrations and joys. I'm not complete, we were never one. But I know in time we will all be but right now I'm not. I'm still under construction.
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