We're Through 2

Thanks for putting up with me
I know that you know that I don't feel the same intense anymore
Sorry, I’m so sorry
I am very unfair to you

I tried, I made an effort
I've loved you but it's no working
Hope is impossible
We're through.

But then I regret what we can be
A perfect couple, everybody envies
We could have planned to settle
Have my whole life spent with you

Until the end of time
Or yet another lifetime

But we're through.

I don't want to let you hang
So I left the thought just hover my mind
I won't let it go, not out
I won't tell you what I am not sure

I know not now, I don't know when
Until that day i won't say
When that moment comes reality will strike
We'll be together or you're through waiting.

A Letter To My Dreamlover

jan 2007

My love, I can't wait to come home at night
As I wait in vain, I think of you
Clock's ticking, city lights glimmering
My heart thumps hard as I open the frontdoor

I walk upstairs, wanting to retire for the day
I can't wait to lay myself on my bed
I can't wait to doze off and....

.............dream of you

I can't wait to be with you though it's just a dream
'coz that is the only time you are mine
My dream becomes reality
It feels so real, you and I together
Happy, lingering each others touch

But along came the morning light
I don't want to wake up
You are gone, and I'm alone again on my bed
Left with a vivid memory of you

And the reality that you are is just a dream
And that I must go on for another day without you
But I'll be looking forward for the coming of the dusk
I can't wait, night must come soon for me to be with you.

Accept Me

oct.19.2006

Open your eyes
Accept me
Open your hands
Hold me
See through me
Dive into my thoughts
Is norm too far?
I don't think so
Think, analyze
It's right under your nose
Reality's shit
Normalcy is sometimes fake
Faking is a reality
So it's normal to be a shit
Shit in the eyes of the many
But to me it mustn't
Because it's a part of me
It's me
So accept me
Open your eyes
Accept me

Wat Tym Is It?

oct.19.2006

Anong petsa na?
Gulo at lito, galit at inis, buwisit at paso
Sunog na ang sigla ng kaluluwa ko
Akala ko "ok" na ang lahat, tapos ganito?

Anong pesta na?
Wala paring direksyon ang buhay ko
nakatayo parin sa gitna ng kakahuyan
Binabato ang santol ngunit 'di masapul.

Anong petsa na?
Nape-pressure na ko
"Diyos ko, help me, help us."
Masakit sa loob, sobra na ito.

Pero ayoko sumuko
Buhay parin ang apoy sa aking puso.

Who Art Thou?

sept.23.2006

MALICIOUS
As if you know me
You can't hold me
You can't touch my soul.

FICTITIOUS
Never did I credited your word
You are unknown, 'till now
Did you even said something true?

CONTROLLER
You're misleading to arrest me
You came to conquer?
I wont let you.

THIEF
As if you've gotten something from me
You can't destroy me
I'm still intact, still priceless

NARCISSISTIC
Too much love for your damned self amuses me
I won't tell you what's real
I know that you know it and it fucking kills you!